~~ cara-cara menghilangkan stress ~~

petang2 begini adalah sangat stress.
tiada ubat yang lebih baik untuk menghilangkan stress kecuali melihat makanan nan indah paras rupanya.
boleh tengok tapi jgn makan.
asyik makan je nanti gemuk.
ok..jom layan belog2 makanan.
cauu!!!

~~ eh! eh! slh org ke?

my BGFF mst perasaan kot, de sorg kwn ni yg dah buang kite dulu, but then ttbe add aku dalm FB.
aku add je fren request die,.
saja nak tengok what is she going to do,.
then dia wrote on my wall.ahah! ttbe mcm kwn je kan.hye fren, bla bla bla..
ohoh..
sorry gurl, for this time being i just can accept u since i have no feeling at all. can be fren, but no keep in touch.
coz, xtau nak bls pape. already removed and deleted me in ur life. so, better just do it.
no return back. thats me. but, every people deserved a second chance rite.so, thats u go.
but, dont expect that i will be super duper frendly toward u like we were really good fren.
yeah!

~~ jam tangan ~~

ini kisah jam tangan. hadiah pemberian The Other Half masa kahwin.
dh lama dah pun, xpernah pakai. simpan je dalam laci.
OH selalu suruh pakai, tapi malas.
sebab rasa jam sendiri lagi cantik. uhuh, xbersyukur jadi isteri. tsk.
then tiap malam pkul12 dengar bunyi tit2 yang banyak2 kali dari bilik.
selalu kutuk dan geram pada rumet sebilik sebab biarkan alarm berbunyi tengah2 malam. geram.

setelah puas OH memujuk dan merajuk, akhirnya sampai seru nak pakai jam tu.
first day pakai baru realize jam tu berbunyi every hour. oh! okeeyy..
then bila tgh2 malam, baru realize jam tangan tu berbunyi lama pada pkul12.
oh! baru realize selama ni jam sendiri yang berbunyi.
ampun rumet ku...(-___-)"

~~ shimah, aku rindu kamu! ~~

ahah! bercakap pasal BFF, yg xpernah tahu pun kewujudan belog picisan ni.
petang tadi OH paksa belaja kete.
rasa paksa separuh rela.
then OH solat di Bilal sambil aku tunggu di pondok.
pandang alam, nampak bukit yang sayup2.
indah! cantik..
tetiba hati jadi sayu.
sebab aku teringatkan BGFF bila begitu.
shimah terutamanya.
dulu, waktu sedih.aku suka bercakap dengan dia.
tapi sekarang, mungkin sampai mati xjumpa.haha.melampau.
aku berpikir balik.
takdir dah menentukan jalan hidup kita.
dulu aku pernah cakap dengan BGFF aku, apa agaknya yang akan terjadi lepas beberapa tahun nanti.
dan sekarang. ini jawapannya.
cepat masa berlalu.
dulu aku selalu bercakap dengan diri, bila nampak couple selalu dating kat uia. teruk.kurang morality.
now diri sendiri pun buat.
dulu xterpikir pun akan kawen dengan orang dari uia. lagi2 background sama.
now, Other Half pun uia, engin plak tu.
dulu xterpikir pun akan kahwen.hahaha.tu lagi melampau.
now, dah jadi bini orang pun.
ALLAH mempunyai rahsia yang hebat untuk kita. tu aku percaya.
tapi aku jahat. selalu buruk sangka pada PENCIPTA.
semua ni aku xkan expect akan jadi kat aku.
tapi semua pun dah berlaku.
sebab tu aku xrisau kalau aku masih belum berezki lagi setakat ini.
sama jugak dengan OH.
cuma risau. ini melibatkan janji. untuk menjemput ramai orang. jadi perlu duit.
ahah.terbaiklah. mesti nak tercakap lagi pasal duit.
moga kesulitan ini akan mendekatkan aku padaMU.
perlu stop.sebelum meleret2.

~~ mari berpikir lagi ~~

Just meet my The Other Half.

discussed about our wedding and house.

both need money.

now, rasa penin bila pikir.

my OH cuma keje part time, aku pun sama.

but, we really desired to rent the house

tapi..

wedding dah makin dekat, 30 june 2012.

lagi 3 bulan..

duit makin banyak di perlukan.

now, aku memg xde duit.

kesian.

tapi hairan.,hati still rasa tenang..hew,hew.

sebab aku rasa ini semua dugaan.

xpela, xnak pikir banyak sangat.

moga dipermudahkan.

yang penting amal kena ditingkatkan. 

masa dah makin berlalu.

pikirkan hal2 dunia.

sampai lupa hal akhirat.

mati makin dekat.

~~ legakah ~~

just meet my Other Half...

his fever and cough getting worst..

still has selera nak mamam..good!

but, still feel regret on what i have done to him..

as usual, he will forgive and smile,.make me feel guilty..

never scold me back on what i had done to him..

feel worried..

rasa berdosa...sbb xbersabar..

i know, i love him more..tapi suke ikut perasaan..

pls forgive me bie..

really hope we will be able to rent house..stay together..

i hope i can look after him, while he needs me and i know i need him also.

ok, stop luahan malam ini.

~~ adakah aku bersalah ~~

Relation as husband and wife sometime is like a round wheel, sometimes smile and some other times 'fighting fighting love' (sila translate dlm bm). same goes to me..yeah, now iam realize that iam the one yang kena improve my communication skill, instead of just keep blaming my husband because hes failed to understand me. sometime iam forgot that he is not really typical malay, which is means my husband still cant fully understand all what iam saying to him and all what i want him for. this is true that in any relationship, communication skill is an essential ingredients to make  balance the flavor. i keep asking him the same questions, 'do u love me?' because he is not doing what i wish him to. Today, i feel regret with myself,.. merajukkk..and got angry to him..and again i asked do u really love me?? n yess i know he is not feeling well today because my fever tranferred to him. and these conversations made me feel very guilty if something happen to him, since i just off the ym after saying this.


: hrp la abg x btmbh skit cmni
: klu abg x syg awk, abg x salau jumpa
: klu abg x syg awk, abg x jg awk'
: klu abg x syg awk, x ada la abg p tolng amik n anta blk syg
: hrp la bnda2 skit2 ni leh jd bukti
: mkn elok2
: bye sygku

iam sorry my Other Half,.hope that i can date with u after this and clear the things up..yess, i admitted that u are the best things happen in my life. u never fail to cheer me up. the comfortable place in this world..n i will remember what u did to me,.no one cant replace u.

ok, enuf talk abt my Other Half..just monolog to my self, since lately iam being crushing to him. hmmm..mcmane la nak jadi isteri solehah camni. though, i know man will melt with softspoken talk,.tapi it difficult to do (alasan!)

told u, a fews days ago i have been figthing with someone those suppose to be my partner for materials lab. he is somalian if iam not mistaken, so worst behavior sampai rse nak muntah bila tgk dia.(xtipu)..jelek, menyampah. owh.nway, now,  i have to deal with prof from this type of guys, sama gak..annoyed and menyampahkan. but of cos due to his level, so i have to behave and sustain the feeling. but to this guy rasa nak putuihhh!
this somalian guy jus know how to complain on me. when hes speaks, xnak kalah langsung. u can imagine that he came infront me n a fews minutes keep blaming me in from of my face nonstopn. oh my! rasa nak tampa je muka dia. but, since he is guy, kang ak plak yg kena tampa balik. but then, iam fighting with him. bertekak mulut la, giler ke ak nk gaduh bergelut ngn dia. sampai menggeletar aku tahan marah.pergh..gilerr. sakit hati giler time tu. suddenly my husband came to my lab, dia terus go to my husband and complaining me. siap ckp ak ni manusia paling teruk dia pernah jupe, ppuan paling teruk dia pernah jupe, ak ni de masalah hati la, and bla bla. what the fuck! he said about me infornt of my husband cmtu cmni. just because of........i leaved him tanpa ckp pape lepas lab. kuang haja kan! dia ckp ak x responsible la, ape la, siap complain that i was gone during the lab session. buduh! i went to toilet, xkn nk ckp kat die gak..siak punye manusia. huh! penuh ngn cercaan n makin harini. geram sgt! so annoyed when u have to deal with stupidito guy like this.

ok, nak stop, sbb bile ingat die temperature ak naik balik.

~~ mari belajar bahasa english ~~

definitely, i have to learn english more and more..
its crucial for me being one of the person who handling the management of professorial council which is conducted in english, but i have lack of vocub T______T

iam dealing with caliber of people and the one has high level of knowledge, speak in english most of their life..n me??huhu..demotivated..nervous all the time..huh! tired being like this. pls dont blame me kwn2, i know my english is broken..but from now onwords i should learn, speak n writing in english eventhough my malay also not very good.hahaha. one kind of useless rite..apapun tak boleeyyyy!

but it is, really nervous when i have to write formal letter to respected people and dealing with their procedure. huh! scare! scare! like a nightmare for me. what iam afraid of? because my english is not very good, i realize it when i have to think the vocub.apakah~~ LOL

so, now google translate would be by best web for searching the word.haha..no dictionary hah..ye lorr..sy kan pemalas.

hurm..talking about my reception that gonna be this june. no any preparation at all. stuck at the midle of the road. haha..pity me. money is the most consideration and the most crucial part at this moment. being a part timer is not enough,.though, thankful to sustenance i have now.

but, it is good have a partner..i means, it is for me have a husband because now iam realizing what of my weakness. hehe..discovered by my husband that i easy to give up. hurm..so, he the one support me,advice me, and angry on me.huhu..agnry but still fulfill my desire. yela, ak ni kan buruk pelantak n suke jejalan. so far, he try his best to fill up all my wish.

today, i went to FRIM with him..lepaking with him at same place i went with my BGFF. huhu.. trus rinduuuuuuuuu kat korg. ok, need to stop now, running mans are waiting for me.


p/s: guys, iam pleasured if u can correct my worst english..hihi..

~~ keje...keje...keje lagi..~~

hye guys, rindu nk menulis kat sini..
sekarang sibuk nak membahagikan masa dgn keje2 part time ak..bila la nk dapat keje yang betul2 n tetap
(-__-)' .

now keje part time ak dah byk..haha, duit je xbyk2 lagi..ai, bila la cik nk kaya ni..huhuk

1) keje jadi secretriat cluster = ni ialah keje admin ye kwn2, honestly said jiwa ak kurang seswai kat sini coz dia      byk pada keje admin, pengurusan, n plak nye ak keje ngn majlis professor negara. dah kalu nama profesor, xkan cikgu2 plak kat situ kan, opkos la sumenye prof2 terulung negara. sume yang de pangkat paling2 pun prof la, lum ditambah datuk, tan sri bagai. uh..sgt berprotokol ok! penat la keje cmni, coz xselari ngn jiwa ak. yela, bagi ak sume manusia sama, klu nk deal tulis surat cukup la, xpayah la nk tru PA segala. tpi yela, kata pun org de nama, sibuk, so sume kne de format. letih! cume advantage nye still kat uia. owh, lagi satu bnde ni pasal law, haha..bayangkan je la, engin kne masuk law umpama lembu masuk parit. tercungap2.sekian!

2) keje as demostrator = i love this job. yela, bnde yg ak dh handle hari2, xsusah n best deal ngn students. no pressure coz lecturer sume dah bg kepercayaan untuk handle.best!!

3) keje as cikgu tuisyen; ni terbahagi 3;
a) ak keje ajar budak add math form 5 ok! haha..ni namanye bidan terjun..puuuummm..!!buuuur!! msuk dalam air. haha..so, paham2 je la cmne.kalu sempat ak study, klu xsempat ak xstudy, so ak bg bdk tu soklanssssssss byk2, then ak cume tunjuk klu die stuck.hahaha..senang idup ak.tp penat ok..lg2 ajar straight 3hours smpi mlm. klu xpenat ok la, tp klu penat haru gak ak.huh..

owh, nt ak smbg.nk blik coz nk ujan dh